He just say you are fine and then if they dont stop crying he seems to turn angry. In fact, if I have a personal mission it is this: to help couples and individuals understand that there are neurological differences between those on the autism spectrum and people who are considered to be neurotypical. He strayed on his former wife and lost everything. Why are there no letters from men married to women on the spectrum? I do what I want too, but its kind of retaliatory. I am also sorry that I caused you pain. I leave the store and run home to rush him to the hospital and my husband is literally sitting there reading his texts while my son is screaming.
He gets very muddled and confused and even forgets what he has said. I am also 17 years his senior. Now and again he will then say that he cares for me (ha ha hahah) and when I ask him in what way do you care for me? 
When I came across this article, I could not believe what I was reading; my story is in these writings; I too could have written it but I didnt understand what was going on, I was going crazy. I would hope that everyone would want to be diagnosed so that they dont miss the many opportunities and strategies that are available to ND people. I figure someone whose brain is geared away from relationship would not be interested. There was a lot that confused me about him, but we were happy and hes a great man. Now they are fighti for my 5 and 3 year old whom he left at 3 and 1 year. If things get too heated, stop and pick up the conversation later. Crissy is a writer living and loling in Los Angeles. but in our closest relationships we want to drop our guard and just relax and be ourselves, rather like kicking off our work shoes and putting on comfortable slippers as soon as we are home. The worst were the airports. How could I make the same mistake twice? He always, always, always lands on his feet! In effective couple therapy, both partners have equal voices. He has no desire to see my perspective (or cant) until I get upset and then he says I am over-reacting. He is sarcastic. She doesnt have to participate in improving how she talks to me, because she does nothing wrong. I will get to work on an article about strategies for healing after the divorce. We are too empathetic until it takes us over and we succumb to fatigue or panic and need some time alone to come back to baseline. She taught our 3 daughters well too. If I didnt loathe divorce I would divorce him. Deborah, when you do get out eventually my experience has been that divorce with an Aspie is quite a beautiful, inspiring experience. Hell be in the room, but not present in the moment. Ive seen two AS relationships that werent like this article describes, but they had other problems. Thank you! Sarah, Fast forward 6 years and we had a beautiful dream wedding. Wife, thank you! Im hoping he doesnt start up his old routine which didnt include me. I wouldnt have minded being married and having kids if things were the way they were 50 years ago, but I literally have no interest in it with the way that gender roles have been skewed since I was a child nearly a half a century ago.
Yes, its not his fault, I understand that his brain is wired differently but again that STILL leaves me in the same position. Its an awful situation and one that is compounded by the fact that his family blames me when I admit I have my issues; but refuse to acknowledge his behavior. Keep me in your thoughts and send me positive energy. She began seeing him while we were still living together knowing we were still living together. My partner doesnt feel my presence as a performance, he knows that I am trying to meet him at a baseline of behavior from which we can both grow and feel comfortable.
Its not something I consciously thought of prior to any relationship, but something I only recognized as a pattern after many, many years. I know forgiveness is a gift i give to myself but I do not believe i can forgive him . So then comes the choice for those with little kids: do you leave to show the kids a healthy way to live or do you stay to intervene between the kids and the father. Rituals harsh, mean and sometimes cruel behavior when those rituals are disrupted intentionally or otherwise. Mom is said to be stronger than some but Mom is alone way too much and Mom does not have living family anymore. However, I work with many couples in which it is the woman who is autistic. It was this meltdown that sent me finally looking for my own health/support, as I am a shadow of what I used to be after 15 years of it. In the past when she quit or got fired shed just go back to school and get another degree. I am sorry you are suffering. Every item became an intellectual debate and he missed the points entirely. Youre supposed to want me! When we do have sex, he is very stiff and mechanical, making strange facial expressions. Im kind and caring and responsive to everyone. I agree that this relationship can benefit tremendously from the help of a therapist who understands both sides of the relationship. If youre interested in working with me, my website and contact information are available on my profile. It was good for me to read all of these comments tonight. I fully attest to the fact that my good little codependent self very likely has contributed to the bizarre situation I find my self in. If a tall person is an insensitive asshole it doesnt mean that all tall people are like that. He did once say (then denied saying) that they always knew he was different. -Sarah. Her husband may respond by saying, Well, youre the one who had to have this big party! The end result will always be the same, you will continue to be emotionally let down and any strategies taught to the autistic person will not teach them about emotions in any way. I am sorry to anyone who has had to endure our lack of understanding and while I know you tried your best, we as aspies also have a hard time, even if we dont show it. There are no simple answers, certainly. If my husband was open to receiving help, we would be in a totally different place. I feel like a prisoner sometimes, as it leaves only going in the bedroom, shutting the door and reading as the only thing I can do. To White Linda, Yet, he is unable to put my needs first under any circumstances and when Im upset he cannot offer any reassurance only anger by telling me its my fault. I personally dont think there is any way one could know what they are getting into in committing their life to an ASD partner. I am so devastatingly weeping right now as I type, because I know that person must still exist somewhere, but I am no longer that person. But would I worry about managing the expectations of the Aspie future ex- not worth the time or energy unless you are involved in some strategic play in court over money, custody rights or property. Never was before. Immediately after I was locked in, he stopped showering regularly every 7 days or so. You might tell him that hes wrong and that hes the weaker member of society, and that maybe hes the challenged one because he cant use his small brain to learn one new thing about people with disabilities every day for one week. I do everything and if I say something its my fault and he fights with me about it. We all do that based on our experience. Love matters. I read it too quickly and I came away with would you marry someone with a disabled parent or sibling? Which is exactly what the OP thread title asks. When I asked for further counselling as there was more we needed to address and still no intimacy he accused me of changing my mind again and walked away. He masked his normal (smug, short temper, controlling, arrogant, belittling, withdrawn) behavior and seemed NT. I find as a female in the role, that I am a bit more sensitive to my NT husband, his wants and needs, and knowing it has to be balanced. Honest to goodness hope. So please, write a book, even if its a compilation of comments from this article. Hes now seeing a woman I believe is also on the spectrum and he began a relationship with her while we were still living together. I am empty, lost and lonely, I have had the life of me sucked out and I am just a shell now. You could also consider bringing him with you to family sessions, if he is willing to pursue this. James, youre certainly correct about the fact that no two individuals are identical. Oh Yes , I regret that I did not literally run for my life and my childrens lives. Our website is not intended to be a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Its been my experience (with autistic friends and boyfriends) that we feel deeply and are more affected by emotion than most NTs, and much more than we let on. I see myself in every aspect of this post, minus the children. My opinions didnt matter because I didnt have hard facts to back them up. I know exactly how you feel. Its almost impossible for anyone outside of the relationship to understand the hopelessness, loneliness, and depression that an ASD partner experiences. When the doctor told him I wasnt going to make it, he stayed in the hospital hall crying. White Linda, you are so right! It didnt matter where we wererestaurants, delis, gas stations, car dealershipshe had inner ear problems that made regular noise practically painful for him, but we wouldnt find that out until much later. They will trick you into believing it is all your fault (they are often extremely charming with the outside world and most people will believe them) and if it comes to the worst they might assault you in a physical way. Warm regards to you. And I miss my friend but realize there is nothing I can do now, except be there for her if she comes out of her denial and blaming, and is ready and strong enough to face it. And that was approx 6 months ago and that was when Dr. Jekyl / Mr Hyde appeared. They cannot change the person with autism. I do not need pity as I know he is crazy. After leaving, I was able to boundary behaviour that I found unacceptable and affirm behaviour that was acceptable and I became more and more assured in doing this. Run for your life or you will have nothing left of it. He is obsessed with rules, schedules, and routines. I have been married to an un-diagnosed Aperger for 43 long years, I decided in October 2014 I had had enough abuse, not only by my husband, but also,my sons. Just how I am going to get through the legal separation, I dont know but I know I am lucky to have my very experienced counsellor to support me and that I now know why he behaves like he does. So many addicts get wrapped up in themselves they dont realize the real damage they inflict on those around them. Now I am free (and newly divorced) and life has improved greatly. If you and your kids tend towards the neuro typical, then you have to divorce in my opinion for the kids sake. You might find your spouse quite willing to share and create space for you if you simply listen and talk openly. Its been a healing journey since then. The therapist encouraged him to take back his emotional safe space and place, as if I am a demon (IMAGO I am his father) and he has done that. I used to be joyful and happy but now I am miserable and sad. This is a space for those of us who are dealing with very real and very painful relationships. She just hasnt managed to come to the reality of what his ASD is and what it may have done to her. This really baffles me! I have a teenage son from my first marriage who lives with us half of the time, and he has started treating me like my AS spouse. Sometimes I notice it less.The other thing that is horrendous is the he knows it all thing. You dont bring friends over. Maybe I wont return after the first 6 months has gone. Who cares if you have Asbergers? She has also lost her dreams, her hopes. Before taking a seat, she handed me her curriculum vitae. Diane I read your response and cried! While he now knows his parents are narcs it isnt any easier to accept their lack of parenting. Youre increasing the presence of stereotypes and stigmas by insisting that the people with Aspergers that you deal with are somehow the only kind that exist, when in reality some Autistic people possess high Emotional Intelligence and have learned how to communicate, but theyre in happy relationships and happen to just not to need your concealing. When I ask him what he appreciates or loves about my personality, his responses are always, I dont know, what would you like me to tell you? He has asked for a list of personality traits so he can know what personality traits are.
The love they have runs DEEP.they just dont know quite how to show usor why we need to be shown! I cant just be expected to have sex whenever he decides its a good time to shower. Now 9 years since I was allowed to visit or support him and he is suffering from stress related auto immune problems too .How do you effectively speak out and escape but help others I think youre right. TC: I am a retired professional nurse. We work online with video sessions and also on the telephone and via email. He accused me of making him fat because I needed constant feeding but I have to eat at regular times because of blood sugar issues, its not a ritual as he liked to frame it. Dont extend yourself to the point where you have nothing left Sheri, it isnt worth it. Im a female with ASD and can only warn you to stick to dating non-Aspies. Those who say, would you leave your spouse if they had a debilitating disease, well Im sorry but youre comparing apples to oranges, . I mentioned he has a food special interest. Sorry for my rambling, Ive been wanting to respond for days and have so much to say and would also love to be with an Aspie Wives Club in my Florida town. Min would have been more like yours had my hubby accepted the situation, or my experience of it. It was never my job to judge or to advise but to listen and to support my poor emotionally exhausted and soul worn friend. What a remarkable and affirming article about the best since I became aware of this elephant in my family in mid 90s when the topic and condition was raised in media, following which I attended Attwood conferences and joined FAAAS. It took me 13 years of marriage to finally put my finger on that never ending sense that something was wrong. WebCommunicating with your partner. As for the gene pool.
Mom couldnt be more proud of the young people they have become. His mother I believe also suffered from ASD and was told by doctors when my husband was young that they wanted him to be tested and medicated for ADHD etc and she refused to acknowledge anything was wrong with them. THIS IS MY STORY!!! I realised that I desperately wanted to leave when my youngest child was 22 months. I have started to see some light ahead with the help of our four wonderful children who bring me joy and laughter each day. Its a miracle that two wonderful boys have come out of them). I feel so upset I was with my partner (undiagnosed) for 4 years, me now 46 him 52, no children I was hoping to get pregnant but we tried and it didnt happen. I couldnt just stay in. Im glad you spoke up to share your experience because its helpful to others. He enjoys spending time with female friends who will talk to him for hours about their problems, while he sits there quietly saying nothing, which they interpret as listening. He also told her that babies and children were boring until they could hold an adult conversation (about his many hobbies!). I send warm regards to you. It reminds me of so many other articles. I cant speak for all on the spectrum but I can say Im definitely as honest as they come. And that is out there in the world once the hell of getting out is over. This, is rare, tho, I think. Now, if he were climaxing with me, this wouldnt be an issue. Thank you, Dr. Swenson, for bringing to light what so many women suffer through alone. You said its emotionally draining when that other person cant see how their behavior is abnormal. And I think this is key. Im always lonely. Your comments are noted. Oftentimes, the partner on the spectrum is not willing. My mum died and I was blanked at her death bed by my daughters. regards. A bit nerdy and clumsy, artsy, and a tad shy until he started drinking. Meanwhile, their rooms are DISASTERS, their shared car looks like a hoarders car, they leave dishes in the sink, eat in their rooms My husband doesnt do anything about it, and doesnt support me. I disagree about your recommendations Doctor, I am an engineer , I was married for 20 years with a man with Asperger Syndrome and I really believe there is no such thing like if you understand the differences between your husband ang yourself it is gonna make a change. But now, a year after separating, it is so much better and I am fond of him and we get on well. The author is a couples therapist so she, by definition, is dealing with relationships which are in trouble -or over- and this article is laser-focused on female partners of unreasonable men with ASD who close to, or at, the end of a relationship. Great comment. Mine loves 90s music and NASA.so I will often couple my requests with a youtube video of a 90s song or an online article about outer space when I send my written requests. Witnessing this over the years was very painful. When I told him my father was on the way down to look after me. Your article hardly addresses the complexities of any relationship but especially a ND/NT relationship! She then has to heal. There are many things an aspie does not know however. I love it so much its just so neurotypical. I saw she tired to work on the marriage and although I thought it was hopeless and life wasting experience, once children are involved and the mom tried to keep it together who I was to judge that. We were arguing more and more about things that werent important. Since then, probably because I have been threatening to leave him, he has been more willing and actually hugs me in bed. Thank you, Susan. She has told me how much I have hurt her and I want to heal what I have done. Ms. Swenson, One of his brothers does the same (not the one who was diagnosed with AS).
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